Monday, June 12, 2006

Under Pressure

So far I am still in the dark about who it was from the 101st Sustainment Brigade that was killed...my high school best friend has heard nothing so far. Which is a good sign. I pray.

Thanks for all of your kind words of support. I truly appreciate it.
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I am too damn indecisive when it comes to certain things...

What job I want is currently at the top of the list. I said yes to one job, then another was offered to me a few hours later...and now there are two more. Four rallying for my attention...and silly me can't just pick one. Nooooo....... I have to make lists and weigh pros and cons. My main priorities are met by each job, making it even more difficult. I think I did whittle it down between two jobs due to location; just don't want to be to far from the resemblance of a life I am finally starting to have again.

But now my head and my heart are disagreeing about which job gets the final ok.

For such a take charge, grab life by the horns girl, I sure as hell could use a kick in the ass sometimes.
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I feel awful....my friend Bree's cousin has this thing for me, and for several months, he has been working up the courage to tell me, despite his knowing how I feel about him already. Which is that he is a wonderful friend. He is so sweet, but I have no attraction to him. Nil.

After hanging out with us all night - drinking, singing karaoke, and making fun of stupid people - our group disbanded and headed home. Me and my girl were very happy and feeling nicely toasted while our DD - her awesome mom - was amused by our antics, as we continue to dissect the evening, laughing about some of the things guys say to try to get into your pants. Or at least a phone number.

Then Bree's cousin calls her cell phone.

He told her what he was going to say, then she handed her cell to me.

I think you are the sexiest woman I have ever met.

And I GIGGLED.

I feel awful, because I know how hard that was. He was being sincere.


(sorry, took the pic down)

30 Comments:

Blogger Jake said...

So, I was going to post something serious...

Then I saw the pic... *panting*

Somebody get me a ticket to Illinois! One way to corn desert please.


*sigh*
One fine day, cowgirl... one fine day.

12:33 PM  
Anonymous shayna said...

I told ya jake... hehehehe... :)

12:38 PM  
Blogger Cowgirl said...

Jake...I do love that photographer. The hair is shorter now, remember?

Shayna, I think I am recalling something over at Jake's. I thought he was certain he was too much for me to wrangle. ;)

12:43 PM  
Blogger Rude1 said...

I think I agree with the guy... :) One hot Cowgirl... hubba hubba

12:44 PM  
Blogger Cowgirl said...

Rude1...thanks!

I'm thinking it is the chaps I borrowed.

12:47 PM  
Blogger Rude1 said...

The chaps are a nice touch, but you got it going on...

A bit better than your WX Pixie, and you know how much I like her! ;)

12:49 PM  
Blogger brian said...

I am thinking you could wrangle anybody that you really wanted.

Very nice pic, but why so shy? Or is it just that deep thought about your jobs.

Here is kick from a friend. Choose the job that feels right, you've got the leverage right now.

I ponder the choices,
my life has become,
so many nice voices,
got to get me some.

Couldn't resist, btw, my guest blogger this week is a close friend of both of us.;)

Love ya'

1:00 PM  
Blogger Cowgirl said...

Rude1, now I am really blushing.

And I know how much you love the weather pixie.

Brian, I'm always shy. ;)

1:10 PM  
Blogger brian said...

You know, the more I ponder that vision of Cowgirl splendor, the more it reminds me of someone very special to me.

1:22 PM  
Blogger Rude1 said...

HA! After all the times you made me blush, it's only fair! :)

1:31 PM  
Blogger BarnGoddess said...

cowgirl-Im springing for Jake's one-way ticket to the corn desert, he deserves a fine woman, he'll make an excellent father to your 5 kids too....you just might need to teach him to sit a horse. Since my budget is kinda tight, is the greyhound bus system okay w/ you Jake?

2:57 PM  
Blogger Cowgirl said...

Brian, who?

Rude1, you are probably right there. I think I would need to blush many more times for us to be even. ;)

Barngoddess, still seeing me with 5 kids and a suburban? *smiles* Might have to buy a bigger horse trailer. And keep my eyes open for some good old ponies.

Praying they ride. (Please)

I bet Jake would take anything, when he decides to visit. Right Jake?

3:19 PM  
Blogger O Ceallaigh said...

Cowgirl, don't worry 'bout gigglin'. I'd be far more worried if you led the poor sod on. Yes it's hard to speak up (don't I know it), but I's afraid you either have to speak up and take your knocks in this world, or just shut up and watch.

Speaking of which, I rather suspect ol' Jake won't be needing that bus ticket. Just pant a little harder and he'll fly all the way from NC to IL. Special Forces training, y'know. There's the little matter of AWOL he'll have to discuss, but ... hell, I'd strap on some feathers myself, but at twice Jake's age and weight, and half his height, not to mention being more familiar with lobsters than horses, I reckon I'm out of the running. Again. Damn.

As for the job ... sometimes you just have to flip a coin. Sometimes the data you need are the data you can't get (like, "what are these people like really") until after you've made a decision. So you may as well make one and realize there'll be some discomfort until you settle in (and possibly thereafter, if your luck is bad). I know, easy for me to say ...

3:57 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Cowgirl, It's me Brian and Diane. As to who? We are looking at your post and I told Diane your pic reminds me of her, and she snorted and said, "right, Cowgirl is beautiful!" Diane is beautiful, and loving, and kind and passionate and I am so very lucky to be her husband.

4:05 PM  
Blogger Minka said...

Yikes....wow oh wow. After that pic it is har dot remember words in the post and I am a girl! I am not surprise dnaymor ethat you have to kick guys away all the time...

5:37 PM  
Anonymous pia said...

Very interesting comments.


good luck with the job choices, and his call was really sweet.

7:57 PM  
Blogger Jake said...

Shayna- *takes foot out of mouth*

Cowgirl- yes, I remember... And hello? who says I'm wrangled just yet? You've just got me rowled up a bit. *the stallion rears up on hind legs*

barngoddess- I appreciate the offer, but I don't do greyhound. I'm more likely to parachute in. Hear that cowgirl?

O'C, once again- you're soooo money and you don't even know it. Strap on some feathers though? That I have to see.

8:47 PM  
Blogger arizona69 said...

Hi Legz!
I'm looking ClustrMaps.. Hmm so many red point! If only a half are man, Your pic is getting terrible effects on world-wide cold water waste ;-)
Best wishes for new job
alexandro

4:24 AM  
Blogger BarnGoddess said...

sinced Jake has to be difficult, just like the man he is, Ill count up my skymiles and see what I tally. got your chute packed? cowgirl, are you ready?

8:19 AM  
Blogger Kyahgirl said...

What a lovely picture that is, it sets a certain mood I really like. You are certainly a beauty cowgirl but its the insides that count and you are a beauty right through.

As for the job, you have to go with your gut I guess. Try visualizing yourself in each one and see how it feels.

As for advice on men, I'm keeping my trap shut. :-)

12:57 PM  
Blogger The ZenFo Pro said...

Lol...you giggled?

Hell, I thought you were hot before I saw the pic... Kyahgirl's right...its the inside stuff that matters.

;)

2:46 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You’re gorgeous girlfriend.

As for the other:

I tend to be blunt and quite frankly- and I know this sounds mean- when a guy already knows how you feel about him and it is” friends only” it becomes some kind of passive aggressive tactic to call and say something like that.
It would really; more than anything make me angry and certainly would not endear the person to me as any kind of a friend.

Maybe that is just me.

Fingers still crossed for your friends.

8:42 PM  
Anonymous cooper said...

eh see...blogger suck...lol

that was me

8:42 PM  
Blogger EsotericWombat said...

Wow... remind me never to be late here again.


I like it when someone is honest about such things nonetheless.

and because I have to:

It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Scream let me out!

11:55 PM  
Blogger Major John said...

Oooh!

That is all.

1:02 PM  
Blogger Miz BoheMia said...

Giggling is good for the soul as is some adoration every once in a while! Soak it up cause you deserve it... here's to good news and much peace my friend!

Besos!

3:04 PM  
Blogger liberal army wife said...

go with your gut on the job. I walked into one job, and after a week... I knew I had made the hugest biggest most monstrous mistake of my life.

~LAW~

7:48 PM  
Blogger G said...

I think you are the sexiest woman I have ever met - and I'm a woman and straight! Wow, honey now that's a pic. Good luck on your job search, but maybe you just want to send that pic somewhere for publishing and start from there. Really good luck and remember unless you sign a contract (and even then), nothing is forever. If you don't like it or find that it's not right for you, then move on and chalk it up to experience.

8:22 PM  
Blogger brian said...

BTW Cowgirl, I was just at Pixie's new digs, read your comment.

I tease you cause I love you, and what makes you happy, makes me happy. I am so glad you are finding yourself again.

Please don't lose touch.

4:43 AM  
Blogger Chris said...

Those abs are mean!

9:56 AM  

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